Thursday, February 6, 2014

My Struggle with Infertility.


I want to preface this post by saying that I really am not super comfortable talking about this type of thing. I love to keep this blog an uplifting and inspiring others.

It is personal, and I am aware that everyone has a different story, and has gone through things harder then me.  I’m sure you can list people you know who struggle with getting pregnant like I do. Maybe, just as many, or if not more, then you could of those who can get pregnant in a blink of the eye.

When my twins turned 2 we wanted to start trying to get pregnant with baby #3, or… #4 since I seem to have them in double.. ha! It took me about 9 months to get pregnant with Tanner and Baylee. I was on clomid when I got pregnant with them and it took 3 months straight of 100mg of clomid to get that positive!

I do believe everything happens for a reason, because the month before I found out I was pregnant I was involved in this terrible car accident. I was t-boned coming off the freeway. Some guy ran the red light and hit me going 45 mph. If I would’ve gotten pregnant when I wanted too. It wouldn’t of been a good thing.

It also comes down to the fact that I don’t ovulate. I do have to take Clomid to help me ovulate. My doctor starts me with 50mg, I didn’t ovulate with that so I was given 75mg, again.. no ovulation. 100 mg. ovulated. I took 100 mg for 3 months and was bumped to 150mg. I have taken 150 mg and have had successful ovulation for the last 4 months.


{ The day I went into labor! }

For those of you who are not familiar with Clomid, it is mainly used in women to induce ovulation. It does not necessarily mean you will get twins. Twins run in my family, my grandma had a boy/girl twin as well and I have had a few cousins have twins that weren’t even on clomid. Does it up the chance of twins, a little. but only by 5%. Which is a lot less then what it’s given hype for.

Clomid effects people differently. Just like any drug. You can have extreme side effects or none at all.

For me, they don’t seem as extreme. The longer I take it though, it seem to have more effect on me. A few side effects that I get from it are.

  • Extreme Bloating/discomfort
  • High Anxiety
  • Moodiness
  • Weight gain
  • Painful Cramps from over stimulation of the ovaries.


I am still able to go about my daily routine. I have been instructed to take my workout routine down a notch or two. Which explains why I haven’t been running much and if I do, it is extremely slow to keep my heart rate low.  I will do about 3 miles every now and then but I am miss it still am teaching body pump and body attack—>(Sparingly) To let my body relax and not be “inflamed”. My dr. explains it in a way, that you can’t put a tiger in a cage with fire around it and expect it to live. I am exercising but not at the level I was. I modify all GPP workouts, and cutting back on running and all activities. I am continuing to eat healthy, of course while enjoying treats in moderation and drinking plenty of water.

I have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility. I have done an IUI for the last 2 months, with success but not. Timing an IUI is difficult and sensitive.

I am optimistic that I can still get pregnant. It has happened before, it just takes time. We really are just taking it one month at a time. I continue to stay positive through this journey.  I am under great care of my Ob/gyn. I have not been to a specialist yet but it is the next step.

I hope that this post may reach someone who is going through something similar and know that they are not alone. It is hard, and frustrating beyond all means. But hopefully, the outcome is good!

On a bright note!

My sister just announced her pregnancy last week and I couldn’t be more excited!